Message from a little girl's heart.

Me?

Hello :((
How are you?
See? I'm bad :((


I'm sorry for using my bad English for now.
I can't get any focus for my school.
I don't know why this happened to me.

First, I don't have any problems with all of my friends, i guess.
I hate some of my friends in my class, but it doesn't matter at all.

Second, i still don't have any decision for my future. Whatthehell.

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And guess what?
I've lost my best friend.
He leave me for somebody else.
Sometimes i think i loved him, although my best friend -pradis- tell me i shouldn't love him.
But guess what? i can't stop my feelin for him.
I've let my heart beats for him. Now what? He leave me alone, i guess, for-ever.

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You know, it sucks when you wanna cry, but you still don't know the reason.
I think, its better when i know the reason. so, i can keep my self away from that problems.
But for now? How?
It's too hard, dude.

Ha-ha, sometimes i were laugh for my self.
How stupid I am, let the others play on me and I do nothing.

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Some people said, love did.
But for me, love didn't.
Why? Yeah, why people give judgments for something that -i'm guess- they still don't know the real mean of that?
Just like, judge the cover without see the content. Right?
Well, before, i've tell my best friend - who i've missed so much- if i don't want to fall in love for now.
But what? He makes me in love with him.
He told he loved me.
But, he still in love with the other girl.
I've tell him, I'll let him with the others, and, that's what i said. Leave me alone. For now.

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Yeah, easily, I can stand for the others.
I can tell if they were okay, i can tell if God know what they felt, i can tell, i can, i can....
But what?
I'm just too fragile.
I'm not strong enough to make my self face the problems.
It's true, yeah, i wanna cry tonight.

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I'm sorry for not tell the truth, Jesus.
I'm sorry Mom, Dad.
I'm sorry Denoy, I'm sorry Kelep, I'm sorry kak Fadley.
But for sure, i just don't know what to say, what to tell.

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Love isn't my problem.
I know this for sure, because, i don't have anyone to share love with.
And for sure, I'm still being Prince N's part and Unyu-unyu's part.
And this what little girl can do, share, and then cry, to let the 'feeling' out.



See? For me, she's best.
She can let what she felt out.
I hope i can cry like this tonight.
Now, i should face the truth.

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I'm a teenager.
If i need to cry, for sure i will.
And after that, do something that child can't do. Face the truth, and keep it for my self.
Keep it away from my sisters, brothers, friends, parents, but not from God, Jesus.
I want Him to know all of my problems. And let Him works.
I know He know the best answer for me.


For now, let me cry.
That's all. Thanks.

*ps: if you want the others don't know if you have a lot of problem, give your smile and said "I'm okay".

Best regards,

Abigail LF